An Open Door

This night, again

I peered within a corridor to see

More deeply into the vast architecture 

Of mirrors inside of me

Fluid mirrored walls reflecting

My mysterious heredity... 
Fluid mirrored walls reflecting
My mysterious identity...

My genesis rebounding into my ending,

Staring into helix corridors of blood and time.

Standing at the center of my full attention

Prismatic tableau of dimension,

Listening to my blood and breath

Banked and arrayed in limitless, unseen direction

The vast scale of forces balancing

The subtlest advance of thought, probing…

Nightly

Searching for an open door to another dimension

Of my Self

Of The One I

Wanted

Of The One I

Needed

Of The One I

Willed to manifest

As an Open Door

Inside of Me

Leading to the Truest Self, onward to Ipisisimus.

Nightly odyssey of  pure intent

The day's work blent 

In a strange concatenation of  dreams

To create a greater house to live in

To find the diamond key to enter

A magnificent manufacture

Of my imagination

In a blink of an eye of sorcery

And I could see waving coats of arms and portraits

Of great ancestral families incorporated in me.

I was all of them now, their circumference

Of blood joining the stars echoing in the mirrors

Descending into the frame of this Great House on flame

Within a moment's transparency of the death that filled it.

All the burning water whirling

Into forms from subtle to gross

Upon this wheeling breathscape enfolding

My attention centered in the mirrored eye of a storm

Whipping down the hallways of my vision

Lightning illuminating the skies of my moonlit future

As I searched corridor after corridor
For an open door to a dimension of the higher self

And everything within was on fire,

Not understanding that this conflagration

Was the prayer burning in this house from my spirit's candle

Caught in limitation, in perilous desperation,

Twisting doorknobs of my own irony and paradox

Frantically this way and that with all my might to find an entrance

Lining the walls of intuition as I roamed at night,
Trying to break the diamond locks of necessity
Enclosing the hallways of my ring-pass-not within my being

Which blocked the passage to this conversation
With the Holy Guardian Angel

And a voice I heard.  

But I couldn't make out words

I knew I had to find the sound because my sight failed in darkness

Only able to look in one direction at a time

But the sound was everywhere, surrounding me,

And my ears failed me not in this. 

I could hear in all directions

Placing before my soul in the blink of an eye

An invitation to enter one

The diamond key to open wide

Every door of infinity's being

Just inside the seeker balancing on the scales of time and tide

The forces of creation

Essaying the subtlest advance of thought

A bird shedding a feather, a wave's snap across a distant shore

A petal slipping from a rose, a star growing old

All falling, yet for each one another particle advancing -

The universe in constant balance

The silent voice of the spirit

Guiding me once inside this new arrangement of its abstract

Knowledge without words

Limning the joints and beams

Of light's mystery,

There to build from all of the enlightenment

Already accomplished within me

Stairways up and up into higher chambers

Leading me through prismatic tableaus of mind

To beautifully modify in stillness the interior of my being,

To stretch into further limitlessness of direction

Into the array of thought

Holding on to one thread of thought, freedom and enlightenment;

That space between two thoughts

Into no thought, no thing

Everything